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Dear GodDear god, the last few years have been kinda crazyDear God by justakid93
I nearly died and smoked until my purple mind was hazy
Wavy on my own wave, I had to do it my way
Until the wave ate me, still you saved me somehow
Sometimes this life can really have a nigga dumbfound
And wind me up until a girl had me unwound
But were you there when I nearly drowned?
Or did I drag myself out of the deep end? Tears of a clown
Please listen up cause I’ve got a lot to say
But you don’t give fuck, another death another day
Am I wrong? Dear god am I wrong?
Life Sentence 1UPI’d trade it all to get that feeling back, literally I mean itLife Sentence 1UP by justakid93
I’d sacrifice my life and everything in it
Just to have you in it, I’d do whatever to win it
I love you and fucking hate you and everything in between it
It’s hey you and then it’s fuck you, my demons have me defeated
Were we ever friends? Did this shit ever have any meaning?
Fuck the meaning… Cause you can’t even fathom the feeling
The phantom menace was breeding, it had me steaming and fiending
I used to think I’d trade it all, cause you had it all
My heart belonged to you, my mind was trapped inside your walls
But right before the fall you vanished and I was bald
Like Samson I balled until my fall and then I collapsed the walls
I used to think zero and zero could make infinite
Until infinite became inferno and you 1up’d over me
But no need for repetition, my mission is to get lifted
Cause every sentence has an ending, here’s my beginning
ClosureA closed door a feeling unfinished,Closure by Billm2n
My heart on the floor my happiness diminished,
I wanna go away just forget you,
But seeing you smile makes me feel anew,
Another guy has your heart,
You're ready to forget and have a new start,
You push thoughts of me away keep them deep down,
I'll go away live life in a hole,
Trying to find a reason to live though forever dull,
On my knees begging for a chance,
Please lets finish this romance,
We ended with nothing but a whisper,
Absolutely zero closure,
A hole in my heart,
No chance for a new start,
I'll just die alone,
A broken man with no home,
Hold me while I break,
My soul is yours to take,
Arms forever open,
If you ever just feel broken,
Here to hold you forever,
Just a lonely poet a forgotten lover.
Christmas DiseaseIt doesn't feel like Christmas,Christmas Disease by Billm2n
Between me and you there is a distance,
I won't see you this time I'm used to it,
Lonely on Christmas hell it's a tradition a bottomless pit.
Laying here cuddling nothing feeling down,
Wanting you to be here feeling like a clown.
I soak my pillow with tears,
Going through one of my worst fears.
There's no snow on the ground.
You're not around,
My blood lines the sink,
I just sit here and think,
I think of all the mistakes I've made,
How you're not right for me sick of this charade,
It's over now I'm done,
I stare down the barrel of this gun,
There won't be a white Christmas but lets make it a red one,
You'll be happy and I'll be dead,
All these evil thoughts out of my head,
A release from the hatred and depression,
All I want is death for Christmas,
Do me a favor don't miss me as I end this,
Go live your life my blood is on my hands,
My name will be forgotten throughout the lands,
Christmas songs are full of mind boggling lies,
Your love will not always
Why?What if I wasn't an idiot?Why? by Billm2n
What if I didn't just quit?
Why did I let you go?
For the life of me I will never know,
You're happy now so I should be too,
But no just a lonely poet forever broken on queue,
One step ahead only to be back to the bottom,
Trying to be remembered just to be forgotten,
So many relationships I've ruined,
My life is done I've blew it,
It's nearly Christmas and I'm laying here crying,
Writing my soul on paper slowly dying,
My heart was yours' but you're just another chance I blew,
I could have places with you now I'm just a bird who never flew,
Can I have you back ever?
What am I thinking that's a hopeless endeavor,
You've got him I've got my sadness,
You've got loads of happiness,
I've got cuts and bruises I'm old news,
Trying my best to smile and maybe forget you,
Though there is always the one who got away,
To be truthful you were my first love and my heart died that day,
The day I was an idiot and made you cry,
Why did I do that?
Why would I throw you away?
2:44 AMBack for good,2:44 AM by Billm2n
Like you knew I would,
My heart is still broken,
But I have awoken,
Sad as ever,
Through this hopeless endeavor,
Stronger than before blood on the floor,
I've missed your face,
I've been a disgrace,
Leaving you with him,
Hitting you like a heavy bag at the gym,
I broke I'm sorry,
I didn't want you to worry,
So I went away,
What more can I say?
I figured letting you go was best,
But now you're in the hospital laid to rest,
2:44 am your heart stopped,
2:44 am my life stopped,
My tears slam the ground,
There is darkness all around,
Blood hits the floor while my head slams the door,
I wanna die too can I please?
Pull the trigger save me from this disease.
Lonely WalkI take a lonely stroll down this dark road,Lonely Walk by Billm2n
Trying to find my way home,
I hear crying screaming a world falling apart,
A little kid with a broken heart,
The blood flows and the trees die,
We're all left asking why?
Why did we give up so quickly,
What does this world truly mean to me,
We hate as a race,
We beat it's a disgrace,
How much do we have to lose before we stop,
100 kids taking their own lives a second is that enough?
I'm sick of all this stuff,
Stand up for the broken,
Be the hero,
Not just a following zero.
VoicesThe voices in my head are telling me to run,Voices by Billm2n
From day one it felt right,
We've never even really got into a fight,
But as time rolls on your veil lifts,
All I see are flying fists,
Your words hit like a heavyweight,
Your lack of motivation fills me with hate,
A darkness takes over my world,
You were once my perfect girl,
Now the reason for my falling down this abyss,
My life has taken a backseat to trying to keep you happy,
It's becoming a tiring worthless role I'm not sappy,
I'm a happy asshole I don't need a significant other to live,
I have a lot of hate but more love to give,
Please let me end this and please don't cry,
Don't come to me and ask why,
You know exactly why you left me high and dry,
I shouldn't have to wait for you hand and knee,
Just tear my heart out because I know you want to,
All I Need is You (pt.1) Josh went through each day of his life barely making it to the next. Every minute at school, he was threatened. Tortured by the constant assault on him. In endless torment, he gradually became insane. The vast majority of his teachers flunked him in their classes out of spite, simply because they didn't like the way he looked. Even his parents, his own flesh and blood, beat him, yelled at him and nearly abandoned him one too many times.All I Need is You (pt.1) by dawnandrew
On this fateful day, something seemed different. Josh walked this path every morning and afternoon. It was tattooed into his mind, into his very being. One, two, three, four. Why did something seem different? Five, six, seven, eight. Only a few hundred metres from school, the air had a sudden chill. Nine, ten, eleven, twelve. A single drop fell onto Josh's nose.
As the rain picked up, there was a sudden static in the air. And then, it all fell apart. A sudden boom in the air signaled the start of a thunder
Nic (Chapter 1) part 1 Cold.Nic (Chapter 1) part 1 by dawnandrew
The only feeling that was worth noticing in this bright, loud room. Everyone pleased with themselves. Everyone simply taken alight with their fantasies, that may or may not ever come true. Who am I? I am Nic. Sometimes I think I was cursed to be this way. Even my parent's named me "nothing". Just so that when I introduce my self I can say "Hello, I am Nic. I am Nothing."
This classroom is the vain of my existence. Full of unworthy souls stealing precious air that I once thought was sacred. How could they be so selfish? They steal our air, our thoughts, our minds.
To think that once, not to long ago, I was a part of this never ending cycle. The cycle of hate, lies, greed and misery. Why was I so foolish? I should've known better. But I didn't. I followed them around aimlessly, like a dog, hoping that they would give me the time of day, that they would somehow understand me. But that was a big mi
Land of Pie part 1 of 4 Long ago, there were peaceful creatures, known as the pie. The pie loved to frolic in the meadow, they loved to play fight and for those that crossed the all powerful god, they were killed and served to the people. The people were hard to satisfy.Land of Pie part 1 of 4 by dawnandrew
The first pie ever to be given to a human was given as a tribute, as the human craved a new desert. Stanley was known as the crook of the land of pie. After hearing that the human was looking to eat a desert, the pie people were more than happy to give the humans this bad pie.
Unknown to the pie people, the human that was given Stanley as a tribute, started to crave pie. The pie people had overlooked one crucial fact. Pie is delicious.
The human that tasted this first pie, was named Steve. Steve was a simple man, of italian descent. He had taken much in his life. Ice cream from the land of Narnia, cookies from Andremma, marshmallows from Dravia and lasagna from Blu Procrasti-Nation.
A Broken SoulA Broken SoulA Broken Soul by IpomeaTricolor
One more broken soul
Laying shattered on the floor
Inside cut by cruel words.
Outside cut by the sweet blade.
A dream of a save world
In which can save me.
Reality hits me now and then
Because you can’t.
You would have to search
For every piece of my broken soul.
I can’t make you do that
All those shards could cut you
But we can’t both bleed.
What shall I do?
Wait until you can save me?
Save me and my soul?
I had that I can only deny this love to you
Because this love destroyed me
You broke me, you are the only one who can fix me.
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